班上的坏孩子

今天不懂为什么感觉班上的人都有在班上睡着=.=
好像大家都很累那样～

我今天也睡着了><"
很少睡着的咯我～至少我是那么认为了啦～因为平常我不听课的原因都是因为我在玩我的，老师教老师的……哈哈XD

所以，今天我的gang的人 - 明仪和狼一直都在睡 - 我和某甲申轮流睡=.=

狼 - 他厉害咯～睡到呼噜噜的，隔壁座的女生听见了一直偷笑，还好我迅速地帮他盖嘴巴=.=

 明仪 - 睡觉正是她一贯的作风～

甲申 - 很努力不给我偷拍，不过还是有睡着了～呵呵

我呢～

在班上通常都是跟他们睡觉时间不一样的那个（就是说，我睡他们不睡；他们睡我不睡）=.=

闷的时候，就拿手机来玩……

上次正好给我逮到1111噢～呵呵=)

今天我和狼做PR，一直找人一起年尾到槟城游玩，我们找了超多人，不过真正确实的大概只有那班form6 gang咯……因为其中一个叫‘坚定’（我不会拼他真正的名字=.=）的，是那里来的人～

有点遗憾就是我们家的甲申不能跟着去，那傻子年尾已经被他教会里的3个营会book去了，不为难他咯～

呵呵……感觉上真的有机会可以去槟城了^^
高兴啊～～～（希望不要像志恒说的“讲爽” ><"）

我的假期有着落了 \^0^/ 

我要乘机去找我的阿J，
等确定什么时候去时，我就通知下她……

呵呵 =)

FB sot jor!

Today, at this moment, FB sot jor!
Well, some of the functions seriously sot jor EWWWWWW~

Hate it. Ish~

Training. Camp.

Saturday morning I went for a personal empowerment training organized by PSG.
I think I gained a lot through the training. I really mean it.

Those topic the trainers covered like: Values, Self-esteem, EQ, Communication, Empathy etc.
We may always come across these terms in the text book, but we can't really understand what it means till u really being put into the situation. Through some of the activities in today's workshop, I think I've learned much - not only from the trainer -  most of the time the other members are the ones who enhanced the learning process.
I guess most of us learn from each other lar~

Practicing those skills and knowledge I learned today is not easy though. But I feel really happy when wolfie appreciate my effort ^^ He say I got improvement err... YEAH \^0^/

And, I finally found some kaki for the camp jor! It seems like some of my classmates are going too! Well, not quite sure, but I know they are interested =)
Good good. I like going with peers rather than seniors. It has been quite a long time for me to go camp with my age of people, I always have to join the seniors' group during camp =.= DUH~

Hehe, now persuading Cwah to go along too. She said she "feel" like wanna join activties but something always hold her back. I dunno, but I guess joing the facilitation camp would be benificial. There're things that we can always learn in camp, just depending on ourselves whether we realize it or not. =)

After hours of chatting with wolfie, he kinda wanna go too. But I dunno. For him, I know he doesn't really like socializing and organizing events (well, that's what the facilitation camp all about - games and learning of organizing events, public speaking, PEER SUPPORT etc.), I don't wanna give him (AND myself too, coz I'll feel stressful to "jaga" both side - him n the society people) any pressure, don't want him go becoz of me; he will not learn, not without he himself have the will to learn through the activities that he doesnt enjoy.

So..... I don't know lar~ Slowly slowly ask him lor...

Hehe..

Camp camp camp

I LOVE CAMP!!!  

=)

New look^^

Hehe~ My place have a new look now, so how is it? Ok?

Well, I am quite satisfy with the deco and the template etc.
Few days ago when I check this blog, I dunno why the template "sot" jor, and mix all my page elements. DUH~
Yesterday I used like few hours to clean the mess. Phew~ Anyway, I'm happy with my new home. And.. This time my blog template credits goes to "Template Mama" which you all can go check her website by clicking the icon at the end of my blog page. Quite cute and neat templates as well as tutorials she provided =)

Today my mood is kinda mix - but more towards the good ones.
It's mix because I have done a good deed today but I don't really know did I do the right thing to help the girl.
Today when Minyi, Wolfie and I was doing our stuff at DSA, a girl sitting a wheelchair asked us for a favor. Minyi told me earlier that this girl is in her class and this girl has some kinda health condition.

So, after that girl asked for the favor, I approached her while Minyi stood quite behind of me. It took me quite long to finally understand that this girl are in period pain and knowing that herself is emotional, she needs someone to accompany. I was quite nervous and feeling so hopeless as I really wanted to help her but I just cant do anything to ease her pain. Sigh~ After Minyi and I helped her to get to the staff room, we went for our class. Both of us were quite disturbed as we never really have the chance to think and feel the way these unlucky people think and feel.

To me, I start looking forward to couseling skills which I hope that I would picked up a lil of it by the time I graduate.

Helping people is always a pleasant experience, but when you have the will to help, but you dunno how to help, it feels sux. Yea, it's a not-really-good-feeling.

Anyway, sleepy now.

Today still gotta rush for assignment =.=

Later need to teach tuition.

Aiyoooooo~ Me wanna sleep leh.....><"

And...Then.. A day.

And today appeared to be an "ok day".

DUH~ I nearly thought it will turn out to be bad. SWT SWT SWT

Today I woke up at 6 a.m. yet get up frm the bed at 7.45 a.m. when wolfie called. DUH~ I thought last night he said he wanna morning call me, rupanya is this "morning" =.= Anyway, Im da one who ask him no need to do so. So no anger~

Then I jumped into my car while calling up EG at 8 a.m. Luckily EG got our observation settle on time and there's a figure for our record. Phew~ Then rushed to school and got up da bus. Then there were a few classmates who were keep on saying, "Oh~ same gang... Late also har..." DUH~ I don't really know them, so I just keep quiet lo... But, knowing someone who sama-sama late for class feels really good. It's like >> "You're not alone". LOL

Reached class. Got a seat beside Henry which is luckily one row behind wolfie, EG and Joyi. Then I saw wolfie face like black black je~ Suan lor, just pretended like I didn't see his black face. After settling everything down then I start talk to him explain explain and Blah blah blah~

Then student council people came into the class to advertise about prom night, Hehe~ I managed to get 10 people including me go~ Yeah~
PS: And the girls kept asking me whther wolfie going or not. And they are so suprise that I said he is not. And they don't believe. And I wondered why GF just can't go to prom without BF? DUH~ I am going without him anyway. Save our couple prom night for next year ba..

End of the class, we went for lunch. And I proudly decided to skip my EL101 aka the boring-til-i-wanna-die class. HAHA XD that's the best decision I made in this week! LOL =P

Then we went to the computer room to check our midterms results. Then, headmaster aka Kim Fooi asked wolfie to go to an adventure club trip which long time ago I asked wolfie go but he said that he has no money. When his brother gang ask him, he suddenly have the mood to go jor lar DUH The excuse is he got money jor~ This nearly got my nerve coz yesterday when I asked him to go for a cartoon meat ball movie on Friday, he showed me "huh? Really wanna go arrrrrrrrrrrrr~" that kinda response. Sigh... Watching cartoon is such a horrible experience huh? What about me watching those high-tech-fighting scenes?! simply EXCUSES lar~
Then both of my guys played counter-strike which I discovered that nerds are really pathetic =.= So, I went on to flirt those guy classmates in the computer room. HAHA XD

And so now, EG and wolfie went for their experiment. I am sitting at the computer room at level 9 while thinking whether or not to attend PSG meeting. Hmm~

Woen Jya called me wor~ Ok lar, got partner I jiu go lar~

Wierd day.
weird. wierd. wdier. wreid. LOL

Huh?

Haih. Midnight. And Im suppose to be rushing for assignments. SUPPOSE..
Duh.. Just so not in mood.

Dunno y. I hate this mood swing thinggy. BTW, does mood swing actually exist?
It's just so disgusting to feel good one second - felt bad next sec - felt ok another sec - felt extremely terrible for a few seconds that actually feel like few hours =.= - felt ok again - felt super hyper and as if the world is at your side then - And, the swing comes all over again.

Is it a personality thing?
Is it stress?
Is it.......I dunno what it is.
Duh...
Stupid thoughts jumped in and out. I hate tonight. Hate hate hate hate hate.

It's Wed tomorrow and I have the worst class ever in my entire life. which I really mean it - WORST.
EL 101 aka Elements for Law.
The what-the-"tut" part is it's not even a subject, it's only an intro part for my next sem's elective >> the BUSINESS LAW.
Sigh.. Human Resource got what to do wif LAW wor? Pls don't make me a bad student by sending me into a class which I will not listen 80%  of what the lecturer said. Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

My mood is getting no where.
I hate THOSE THINGS that had triggered it.
I hate getting no where. I want more positive impulses for my life. I need it. DESPERATELY.

1 a.m. and I don't feel like sleeping. Can I wake up late tmr?
Can I be late to class without having those eyes and faces that keep telling me: OMG~ She's late AGAIN!
Duh..

Anyway, good nite all human beings.

Good nite baby Doo and baby No.

Mummy loves you both.

You both are the only n best THING that will never make me feel upset.

*muackkk*

Make-up products?

Well well well... Yang went around online shopping AGAIN =.=
First was the jnjstreet.com, then happy-beautyshop.com, then Kxin's sis place then some very random blogs DUH!

I enjoy being a girl, shopping just make you feel soooooo good LOL 

BUT!! at the downside, my cash is flowing like water~ Not yet, but it going to be SWT""""

Ok, so Yang's tonight search theme is about eye make up. I went through lots of article yet can't have a clear clue on which product to use best. Guess u can only determine a good/bad product only after using it huh?

Anyway, here's something that I wanna share:

Check this link: Beauty Products

I don't really know how reliable is this article... But I am pretty sure that ALL the products there are branded and hence EXPENSIVE. Duh~

Just wanna get ur attention to the mascara mentioned in the post:

Best mascara - Maybelline Intense XXL Volume + Length Microfiber Mascara. 

PS：check those comments too. Somehow quite useful.

According to one of my friends' elder sister, she said this is really good. It "extend" your eyelashes and it can be wipped off easily and blah blah blah....

Well, that's "ACCORDING TO HER", I dunno, but I'm VERY interested in buying it to try. Sooner or later I am going to stores to check out for the price! Hehe ^^

Yesh yesh... I need to do lots of homework before I can do a presentable eye make up. Learning hardly... Learning....

That's all for the sharing..

Haha way back to my "research" LOL

Nitez people, have a great dream =)

打扫～

*扫一扫地*

*吹～*

*灰尘满天飞*

*咳咳*

*大喊：我回来了！！*

嗯，来打扫我的小窝了……终于考完mid-term咯^^

这几天节目都是满满的，很*棒*的feel～
多谢CY，我才记得，喜欢把生活过得充实，不是一种罪过。

上几天的节目有：参观学校的辅导中心，中秋晚会，去joyce的教堂听歌，电影，shopping，pasar malam，帮妈咪准备礼物等。

接下来的节目有：去EG的教堂，Beauty talk，参加experiment等～

当中还有我很期待的prom night。很想去见识下，不过想到只是Yr1就去参加，会不会浪费钱……不过这种function，是我很喜欢的……*矛盾挣扎-ing*

无论如何，
加油加油～
快快挨完这个学期！

我要过生日！

我要放假去外面旅行！

我要过圣诞节！

我要过新年！我要买新衣！我要过情人节！

我要做internship！

我要去我人生第一次去的演唱会！我要买stand by U的专辑！

我要……我要……我要……

我要我活得开心，

也要我身边的人们也为他们自己开心……

Drink for me?

Yea~ I know I am not suppose to be here. I know I got many things to do. I know I left so many things behind that I suppose to do but I am so RELUCTANT to do them. LOL

Sigh.. Look at everyone's MSN message. All of them busy for their school thinggy too... Why must assignments, exams, activities be so suffering?!! STUPID~

Ish ish..

Then my body also STUPID~ Next week wanna exam now then you hang-gei la?! ISH ISH... Today my voice so "man" LOL
Only get to recover a bit of my feminine voice after wolfie bought a kind of sweet for me. *hugz*

Then my dad bought le some Chinese medicine which tasted super super super horrible. I added like 3-4 spoons of sugar still can't remove the bitterness. How arr? Still got about half pot to go. Pour away will be super wasting but I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!

Argh..... *roaR~~~~~~~*

This the look of the smelly horrible thinggy:

Anyone wanna drink for me?

推荐Online Shoppin [And，找人分担邮费!]

大家大家～

洋要在jnjstreet.com（有兴趣就点击吧～）买一些美容/美发的东西了～

上次某个黄梨山说她要买电话线（拿来绑头发的=.=），我跟她说等我下次（就是现在）做Online买卖的时候帮她，因为便宜嘛……呵

since要帮她，洋想也帮帮其他的姐妹吧～

你们按上面那个link来看看里面有卖的东西吧～

洋（也有介绍过给某雯^^）在那里买过了东西，觉得很不错啦……价钱ok，服务态度也不错。

要是有兴趣的话，跟我说声吧，我们一起联订，可以剩下点点邮费……

话说，邮费在那个网站一律是RM6，所以洋就想找到人跟我分担咯……

我们用购买数量来看看怎么分担咯，话说如果2人一起购买了10样，5样你的，5样我的，那就一人一半RM3的邮费……这样来分担……呵

（然后就东西寄来我家了，我拿给你们……）

你们自己看看吧～然后跟我说……

号外

话说我自己是用过几个很不错的物品的，现在想购买的也有几样觉得不错的，跟你们分享下吧：

资生堂 -- 矿物泥去黑头粉刺面膜 ：这个拿来clear黑头的，涂在脸上等干了，撕下来，清掉那些鼻头肮脏的东西。（虽然很小包，要是你只是搽在鼻子拿来去粉刺，就可以用2-3次了～）

资生堂 -- 美白修护面膜软膜膏水嫩美白 ：这个是美白/水嫩作用的。会不会有明显效果，洋不太能分辨……不过说能把皮肤弄嫩些，有啦～

The Face Shop 速洁毛孔痘痘贴：这个这次我又买啦！！贴痘痘的，手抓不到，使痘痘看起来没那么明显，痘痘也不会弄到灰尘……RM8，不过里面有50粒！不错^^

DARIYA浏海固定无痕魔法发贴：一包有两个，做功课的时候贴头发起来，拿下来后绝对不留痕迹！再说，有一次我在外面看到卖RM10，网站卖RM3，那些外面的店铺太会赚钱了！！><"

韩国超热卖 电话线 、电话绳 发圈：不知道外面卖的是多少钱，网站卖的是RM0.80。就头发放下来不会有那么明显的痕迹就是了～

其他：个人可以推荐的有美丽日记&我的心机，这两个品牌的面膜～

洋大概一个星期多后就去下订单～

有兴趣分邮费跟我说噢……

舞台下的一个学姐

刚刚从学校回来～

心情很好呢^^ 因为看了一场很不错的舞台剧。
今天是我们华文学会办的最后一场舞台剧，上台表演的都是我的学长学姐，所以我即使自己一个人，也当然去捧场了……
[哈啦下：唉……当然一个人咯～狼说答应了自己2个星期不花钱出街，我不能让他毁了自己的约；我在学校唯一的姐妹—明仪，那个她不会中文；还有EG，那个宅男的敏敏回KL啦，更加更加不可能来=.= 我在学校的gang就只有这3人……汗、、]

撇开那些不说，其实也蛮庆幸自己是一个人去的～
舞台剧名为：《镜思语》，蛮艺术性的舞台剧，宗旨为表演者化身为一面镜子，让观众从他们身上看见自己，从而反省。里面说的都是很惹人反省的，譬如说：学习、贪念、埋怨、孤单、自大、放弃、死亡等等。

種子主藝: 《镜思语。TheMirror》剧照

话说我庆幸自己一个人去的原因是：正我是一人去，反省的空间变大了……不需要理会别人，一边看就一边放映自己，去思考，去领悟。

不过，一个人最最最最最最不好受的，就是当活动结束后><"
大家都是有人陪伴走出来的，然后走了出来过后，还是围着一大班讲话，很热闹的……而我，只是一个人走了出来，很渴望地寻找我认识的脸孔……

找～找～找～找～

最后，终于找到个我认识的学姐 T-T

从没想过可爱的她原来是个大好人！！！

陪了我聊下天（让我看起来没那么孤单）；拉着我拍了张照片（让我留下我有去看舞台剧的证据）；最后，还对我说再见（让我不会那么黯然地默默离开）……

最让我感到窝心的是这个学姐真的很会照顾人噢～

我离开前会跟我说：“自己一个人开车回家么？小心啊……”。然后，她脸带笑容地站在大门口，用眼神护送着我去黑漆漆的car park取车。

好久好久没感受到那么窝心的感觉了！！！ *感动ing* 

学姐大好人～

也许你不会知道，不过今天有了你那些小小的举动，让我的一天变得更加美好……呵

谢谢你……

这个星期里

总总的压力使我喘不过气

我发脾气

我质疑自己

我哭泣

我迷糊

今天，这些心结都打开了～

早上车里听见DJ说的些废话、老师、狼，还有这个舞台剧……

有意无意地

一块一块的

把我的信念信心都建立回来了

*谢谢你们*

现在的我

呼吸了

谢谢……

学习

从不应该停止

有了目标

我不应该放弃。

困难、压力

促进着成长的速度

眼泪

见证我的改变

我

不应该放弃

不应该质疑

我的信念

我的梦想

没有人比我更加清楚

我啊我～

抓紧它们，不要放弃……

知道吗？

你是最好的！！！

=)

What's wrong...

Everything seems too right that they cannot be wrong.

Everything seems too right that I cannot be wrong.

Everything seems too right that people cant see what's wrong.

But

There's something wrong.

And

I don't know what is it.

What's wrong with me...

Am I falling?

I don't feel right.

So not right that I denied.

I repressed.

But I feel fear...